thank you

all i can do now is stand by you
and push you on
i can't do anything more
but i thank you...for giving me a chance.

one thing i realized tonight was that
i really did love you.
i really don't want to let you go
but i know understand how you feel
and why you let me go.

thank you..for all the fun memories.

every where i go...i keep thinking of you. i dont understand why we have to be separate like this. please don't leave me alone. i know it's a lot to ask but please. without you i would be nothing. my life would have absolutely no mean to it. you are my breath, my heart, and my life.

without you, life is not worth living. i don't want everything to fade away.

How can I steal you from your family?

You asked for my hand in marriage and promised me you’ll move to Japan with me…but how can I do that? How can I marry you and then take you away from your family. You’re a son. You are the one to care for your family. You are the one they look up to, the one they depend on. How can I, an outsider, come into your family and take you away. It just doesn’t seem right. Allowing me to do such a thing, I would rather die. I’m not able to do such a thing. You mean a lot to your family. To prove your love for me and making my dream come true is very nice of you but…you shouldn’t let a woman rip you apart from your family. A woman can become a part of your soul, a part of your family. But never let that woman take you way from what you hold dear. Your family will always be there for you but a woman can always change her mind. I say this not because I don’t love you but because I love you. I love you so much that I cannot remove you from your family bond and make you my own. So…I am sorry but I will not be able to accept your offer. I hope that we will still be friends. Upon our next meeting, please see me nothing more than a good friend. Thank you for all your love and all your caring, my good friend.

What is the bond?

Even thought I talk of empty bond, what is the bond itself?
Even myself doesn't know, but one thing for sure is that
this bond is family. Yes, family.

You're probably wondering why it's family.
It's family because our family had created the bond and
it wasn't us that created that bond.
It is a bond that the family holds, and for us to fulfill.

We are the puppets that are being control by others.
We are not allow to make decisions for ourself,
because others make them for us.
We are not allow to choose who we love
because it has already been done.

This is what our life is...well, at least to me.

~ Am I wrong? ~

In my heart, I really don't know what to say. Whenever I ask for an answer, it doesn't give me one. No matter how much I think about it, there's still is not reason to stop or a reason to go through with it. It makes me feel like I'm turning him into somekind of project, when he's not. I really don't want to hurt him...but what choice do I have? What am I suppose to do? Either way, the two of us are just using each other right? That's how it feels like...We're just using each other. I keep thinking that if I go through with the plan, he'll just use me then leave. So why not use him? Why not experiment with him and see how far I can get?


Even though, I think of these things, I'm too human to go through with. I want him to see the world differently. But what can I do? What can I do to make him realize that the world doesn't revoved around money? That the world isn't just a place to play. Just how can I do it? Just how?

...Neverless, the thought of us using each other...
...It's not wrong, is it?...

...I'm not wrong, Am I?...

~ Empty Bond ~

An empty bond, that's what it is. No love, no compassion, no emotions, nothing at all.

Yet, there's this string that ties us together.

That's how it feels like...an empty bond.

We are together, yet we don't love each other.
We don't see each other more than friends.

We can't see how are future will be or how it will end.

Yet, there is this bond that ties us together.

A bond so strong that we both can't break free....

But do tell, it is just me or do you feel the same way too.

It is all just an empty bond for you?

It is just something you have to do because you can't get away from it?

What is the true reason behind this?
What was suppose to come out of it?

Please tell me if you have the questions.

I would love to know.