What can I say? Three month ago, something happened. Something I really didn't care for yet I did. Something that was good yet made me sad.

Three month ago, my fiancee got married. He had married a girl from his village. At first I was happy about it. That I'm finally free from this arranged marriage. But then, at the same time, it made me sad. Because I had given him my trust and he ripped it up. I thought he and I were meant to be...but I guess not. Then I was mad at him for bringing up the whole arranged marriage thing. If he wasn't gonna stick to then why the hell did he tie me down for two whole years. I mean I could have been with someone too during that time but I didn't want to take the chances of falling in love and letting go due to the engagement.

However, I am thankful of him. Because he opened my eyes and made me realize so many things. Such as 1) I'm Hmong, 2) I'm a girl, and 3) men are cruel, we, women, are seen like toys in their eyes.

My point is that now, that he's gone. I'm somewhat happy and yet somewhat sad. I guess I just can't figure out my path right now. I wish I knew which road to take. Perhaps, when the time comes, I will find the RIGHT way.